Hello I want to take this time to start by saying my name Is Juju, I don't usually share this with people but maybe it will help others in life and their Journey. This is about Love, Happiness, and tragedy. I want to start by saying that with every experience we go through in life there is a Lesson to be learned. I believe everyone has a purpose and everyone matters no one should be treated differently cause we all go through hardships. We all have our own little story to be told and unfortunately some people judge you and what you been through. Just remember NEVER Judge a book by its cover cause you never know what story it holds, or what nightmare some relive. This will be a story about my Real life and my Love for a dear man who is no longer here with me. Not a day goes by that he isn't missed Loved or even thought of. He was a HUGE part in my life and was taken away too soon. They say God has a reason for everything he does in our life either it's good or bad. I know there may be some people who can relate with my story and I hope whomever you are you can understand me and know you are not alone. I know it is a struggle and some of you blame yourself. You may wonder what did I do wrong, why didn't I get there sooner, I wish I could have changed things I have said or done. Sometimes guilt or regret can consume you and over take your day to day routine. Just know you are not alone in this and there are people you can speak to.
I was 16 years old when I met the man I fallin in Love with. He was 19 at the time and I was a very outgoing teenager and wanted to get to know him better. We were introduced by a mutual friend who I grew up with since birth. Well the next you know we hit it off and he asked me on a date, I said yes and we decided to make it a double date him and I, and my friend and his friend. It wasn't anything fancy cause I am a simple person so we went to a Italian Restaurant and we decided on Pizza. Well we decided to make it official a few dates later and I introduced him to my Parents. I will admit our relationship did kinda go fast and it was amazing. I mean we had our ups and downs but we always worked it out. Well after 5 months of dating I found out I was 3 months pregnant. Yes it happened fast and It was actually a blessing. We found out I was having a boy and we were so excited about it so we started preparing and getting things we needed. Well came time for me to give birth and we had our son on the 5th day of September. He was the best thing that ever happen to us. Anyway my son's father proposed to me and I said yes!!! I was so excited to have our family and to be engaged to the man I loved. I thought we had forever together. Well things didn't work out with us and I decided it best if my son and I moved out. This is where things get a little emotional and exhausting and things being said that was hurtful to each other and we didn't mean it.
Skipping a few years well more like 10 and a half years, my son's father wanted to get back with me and I told him no. Even though I was planning on giving us another chance that December on his Birthday, It was to be a surprise. Anyway he came over one day and was so excited to tell me he became an Ordained Minister. Well I congratulated him on his accomplishment and was so proud of him cause he did it so he could be the one to marry his friend n his friends fiance. That was in June or July of 2013, then September came it was our son's 11th Birthday! Little did we know that we only had one more month to spend with his Father. We celebrated my son's Birthday as we always do and we got ready for October and Halloween and trick or treating. Well my son's father got sick in October and he thought he was getting better. I tried to make him go to the Dr but he said he was going to make an appointment for his family Dr. This was the 23rd of October that he said this. He told me he was feeling a little better n his fever went down and he was taking medicine. Well October 24th came and I called my son to say good morning and have a great day in school, then asked to talk to his dad but he was sleeping at the moment. Later that day my son came home to tell his Dad he didn't have homework. This day will never be forgotten ever, my son called me crying and screaming that his Daddy was dead. This was the most HORRIBLE day of my Son and I's life to have the one we Loved so dearly pass away before our eyes.
I recommend if you have a Loved one you haven't spoken to or if you have said things you didn't mean that were hurtful, you take some time to set things right. Cause you never know when will be the last time you will have with them. I never got to surprise my Son's Father on his Birthday in December and make that dinner for him and to tell him I would LOVE to give us another try. Sometimes I think what if I would have done it before his Birthday would it have changed things? In all honesty I don't think it would have cause they say God has a reason for everything and I think it was just his time to go. I know he may not be here Physically but I know he is here Spiritually. I know he will always be in my heart, my mind, my soul, and my memories. He will never be forgotten and I will make sure my Son knows him and how much his Dad Loved him and how much he meant to his Dad. He is his Dad's only child and will carry his Father's last name and have his own family as he gets older, to continue his Father's Legacy. I know my son's Dad is looking down on him and I and all his loved ones and watching over us. Please just remember don't hurt the ones you Love, make sure you tell them how much you Love them and how much you care for them. Our time on this beautiful Earth is limited and you never know how long you have with someone. Don't take someone for granted whom you truly Love. Show them how much you Love and appreciate them. Also, I say this one last time Never judge a book by it's cover cause you never know what is on their pages. Remember it may be hard to express your Love and feelings for someone but it is even harder to not be able to express them when it is too late.
By: Jujubeyummy85
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